to love or not to love

my favorite line in the movie unofficially yours starring john lloyd and angel is this "may isang taong inilaan para sayo. taong mamahalin ka ng totoo. taong deserve mo" .

this was said in the scene where cess (the character of angel) was crying her heart out to her mother in the kitchen corner, after a very emotional confrontation with macky (john lloyds character) revealing to him the reason why she can't be falling for him. because her heart has had enough..theres nothing left of her to give to him. if only he was earlier, when her heart can still feel. and can still beat for someone.


can u really command your heart not to love, when do you say that youve had enough pain in your life and that your heart is not anymore capable of loving?is it your heart thats telling you that or your brain whos blocking your heart from beating for love. im reminded again of the irony of the dialogue of cess and her mother in the movie (i just dont know the actress but shes a good one)

cess: hindi ka ba natatakot masaktan? (paulit ulit nalang!)
mother: hindi lang ako napapagod magmahal.


to the point of view of cess, to love is to eventually feel pain and loss. but to her mother, to live is to love no matter how much pain you encounter throughout the journey. for as long as you continue on loving. if youd get hurt, rest for a while but continue to love.

unofficially yours was a different approach to a pinoy romantic comedy, but one that tackles a reality. it brought me to thinking, and it lead me to these lessons.

1. the basic lesson in love is taught by your family. everyone around you plays a vital role in forming your principles and beliefs in life and in love. they mold you consciously or unconsiously to become the believer of love or the pessimistic president of the anti-in love society. when you see your parents hurting and crying because of love, you will ordinarily have doubts on loving. but if you see a beatiful friendship and love sorrounding your parents relationship, ssurely you will be a hopeless romantic. im proud that my parents had always loved each other. they are the best of friends, the partners and the lovers. looking at them it makes me wish that the guy God prepared for me will love me the way my papa loved my mama.


2.for every heartbreak, your heart will be broken into pieces. but i believe that it will be whole again. it may leave scars, but these are scars that makes a heart stronger and healthier. these are scars that will be a reminder that once in your life you tried, true you failed but who cares? heads high you then say i survived! to love is to make that choice, it is to be aware that it may end up in a fairytale ending. or it may also be another heartbreak coming, but despite the fear of being broken again, you get out of that comfort zone and love again.

and lastly..

3. you deserve that one person who will love you without conditions and will understand that your heart was crushed and broken to pieces and that it has scars, it has fears.. and yet even so will wait for your heart to be ready to love again..


may the force be with as you continue to be hurt yet always comes out victorious. never stop loving. :)

why am i in law school?

after an exhaustive workday, my day does not end yet. i still have to pack my things up and include in my baon KRUM. i am an employee on day, and a law student at night. it is a hard task trying to juggle things and truly there are a lot of sacrifices. sometimes i ask myself, are all these worth it? am i going somewhere with everything im doing now. exactly just like now, i have my laptop with stuff about terrorism. and a book on the side, also flipped to the page on terrorism. by now u probably understand already where my questions and grunts are coming from.

i wish im a full student, just like my roommate chin. so i dont have to stay awake late just to study, so i could sleep until 10am, and so i can give my 100% to just studying.

but if i am, i will lose my hard-earned money. how then can i keep up with all my wants and needs, but mostly wants.

really, when youre both, you will be a mediocre in life. youd be loser..and yet here i am... still pushing for it.

to all students out there, study hard while u can. dont rush the desire to work, you dont know what youre wishing for.

to all workers out there, dont u miss school? it feels so good to be just in school ayt? under the comforts of your school and friends. ohh i miss college!

to all workers plus students like me. kudos to us for surviving this life. May GOd give us strength to continue until we can say that it was all worth it.

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easy access.. get ready!

i connected this blog with my phone already so i could just get my phone and jot down everything i wish to share. whenever i wish to. good thing technology and me are friends. i suddenly remember my teacher who said that todays generation are called "digital generation" but also made it clear that were not one of them.

anyway, excuse me if i may write senseless thoughts and eccentric ideas but who knows, it would all make sense later on.

i have one problem though with having to blog on my phone. im trying to navigate the app, (iblogger) i cant seem to find a way to attach a pic, maybe u just cant have it all in life.,

awright!! ill be back!

hey its me leah!!!

hey its me leah!!

i finally found the courage to start my own blog. im not a writer. never had experience in writing for any school publication, but always envied those people who gets to express their hearts out through words and compositions.

this will be a new addition to my busy life but when i get the chance and when i have something to write about life, love or leisure, i promise to write and open my life to everyone who allows me to enter theirs.


hey its me leah!! this is a good start!